i was just reading all of my older entries on my first sit Diary and it made me think back on my freshmen year. I thought it was horible but it turns out that my sophmor year is worse. and Ive said this before, this year is the first time that I EVER got lower than a C- on my grade card.

Also reading all of my older entries made me think of the first time that I had ever liked somebody so much that It would screw up the rest of my day if he didnt talk to me in first hour..to tell you the truth, if had my freshmen year to do all over again, i would in a heart beat. This person that I liked was probably the closest to being what I liked the most in a guy, he was sweet, adorable, had strong beliefs in god, wore hurley all the time and listened to everything that I listen to (as in music). and I found out that he liked me and I screwed it up by being too shy and not talking to him. even though he moved a long time ago, just now it is sinking in that hes gone.

just thinking about all of this makes me cry